Hopeless Moment
Have you ever been in a moment when you feel hopeless and lost? It could have been 15 years ago, a month ago, or even today. That moment that you felt nothing and no one could help. You were grasping for anything and anyone to make you feel safe, to make you feel like you weren’t alone, to help you to feel hope?
My Past
My past sadly has many moments where I felt lost, alone, and like there was no hope. I tried everything to make myself feel better, my past is filled with sin, hurt, bondage to anything and everything I could get my hands on. I lived in a bubble of my own making constantly focused on my own hurt, shame, and pain that I couldn’t escape. This kept me down, depressed, alone, and lost. Then I cried out!!!!
Deliverance
I remember the day I was sitting in my bed, alone, sober, depressed, oppressed, afflicted, and ashamed. Being up all night, I had finally come down off a couple days of drugs, not liking to be alone, or sober, because I had to think, I had to see myself. I had looked in the mirror and my reflection disgusted me. I wasn’t who I thought I might be, I was messed up and a failure, I could barely stand to look at myself. This is the plan of the enemy of our souls, to make us feel like there is no hope. I hadn’t just gotten here overnight, this was the tipping point of many years of bad choices, hurts that changed me, and a deep wound I felt no one could heal.
He Entered The Room
When I felt I couldn’t take anymore, I started to cry, I cried out to God. The God who I knew as a child, who had given me dreams, saved me from drowning, touched my heart so deeply as a child. But when all those dreams were shattered by my parents divorce and ultimately my sense of self worth and feeling safe, I had turned to the world. I wanted Him, desired Him, but didn’t know Him. Not really. Many times I had almost died and would say, “Jesus please don’t let me die this way!” But this time was different, this time I was ready. I knew if I didn’t surrender I would die in my sin. So I cried out!!
“Jesus!”
I cried out, “Jesus!,” Save me, I want to be married one day, to have children, to have a life, I want to stand for something.” In that very moment Jesus moved heaven and earth and made a way! He was waiting ever so patiently for me to turn towards Him and cry out! Jesus made a way in the wilderness of my life. He helped me to leave the next day from Colorodo and go home. Everything changed when I cried out!! After a few weeks being home I had repented of the sin in my life, and felt a feeling of peace! I didn’t need to lie anymore, I just desired Him! I knew there was more and as I sought Him, He showed Himself to me!! He filled me with the Holy Ghost and delivered me from the life and bondage I had been in.
Crying Out
There is such power in crying out to the God of Creation!! Since then I have cried out many times and He has been right there to deliver, heal, lift up, encourage, provide, and love me! I have learned early in my walk with the Lord the power of crying out!! When I go to Him first, He meets the need!! No matter where you are today in life, your marriage, or your walk with God, you too can cry out and He is waiting to answer. It’s a desperation, a place of humility that says we can’t do this on our own. I’m thankful for learning to cry out!
Presumptuously
Recently in a time of prayer and fasting with my husband I heard the Lord speak a word to me. I will share this word here for you to read and pray over. God is at work in this late hour, and we His people need to cry out, to humble ourselves and to hear His voice. On April 6th, I felt in prayer this word for what we are going through right now in this hour: He spoke, we need to repent, not just for the sins of the nation, but for the sins of the church. He said we have lived presumptuously, that we haven’t felt like it’s our job to go across the street, or across the world to be a witness. That the American church has had so much that we just do what we please. I looked up the word presumptsuosly and it means arrogance and pride. This is just a portion of what the Lord spoke to me. We need to cry out in repentance and humble ourselves. He showed me we should say “if the Lord wills” we will do this or that. Let us cry out today and see God do great miracles in our lives and marriage. He will fill us with hope and joy!!
Prayer
Our prayer for you this week is that you would find a place of repentance. Pride says we don’t have to do anything, we don’t have to repent. Humility says we must humble ourselves, pray, fast, repent, and cry out!! There is such power in crying out to Jesus!! He’s waiting on you today! If you need prayer or want to find a church in your area please contact us by email or messenger!
Scriptures
Monday: Psalm 9:12 says, “For He who requires blood remembers them; He does not forget the cry of the afflicted.” His sacrifice was for us and he will not forget us when we cry in our affliction!
Tuesday: Revelation 12:11 says, “And they overcame him by the blood of the Lamb, and by the word of their testimony; and they loved not their lives unto the death.” I share apart of my life and past and through this others might call upon Him and I will overcome as well!!
Wednesday: Psalm 34:4 says, “I sought the LORD, and he heard me, and delivered me from all my fears.” He can and will deliver you when you search for Him and cry out to Jesus!!
Thursday: Exodus 3:7 says, “The Lord said, “I have surely seen the affliction of My people who are in Egypt, and have given heed to their cry because of their taskmasters, for I am aware of their sufferings.” He enters in when hears our cry! Egypt is a type of the world and we are under this worlds taskmasters, but when we cry out, He will deliver!!!
Friday: Acts 2:38-9 says, “Then Peter said unto them, Repent, and be baptized every one of you in the name of Jesus Christ for the remission of sins, and ye shall receive the gift of the Holy Ghost. For the promise is unto you, and to your children, and to all that are afar off, even as many as the Lord our God shall call.” Jesus is the answer and the one who hears us when we cry out!! This is the answer Peter gave on the day of Pentecost on how to be saved. Jesus had given Peter the keys to the kingdom!
Saturday: Psalm 119:146 says, “I cried unto thee; save me, and I shall keep thy testimonies.” There is great power in crying out and He will save you!!
Sunday: 2 Chronicles 7:14 says, “If my people, which are called by my name, shall humble themselves, and pray, and seek my face, and turn from their wicked ways; then will I hear from heaven, and will forgive their sin, and will heal their land.”
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